The Unseen Child: Grieving the loss of a miscarried babe

The promises we make
and break
all in the same breath
I'm scared to death
and he falls gently to the ground
without a sound
and I cannot see
why He means it to be
this way...

So stay
or go
I don't know
if I'll make it through
the blueness
of this night

The fight takes all I have and will be
I can't fight it anymore

by Hilary D'Elia

Judah

I miss the possibility of you here
You are better off in His Hands

O how the tears fall softly
Down my face and I
Can't keep up with
Wiping them away

Can't we meet just once
And look each other in the eyes
Would you meet me there
Just so I could stare at you

To remember your face

by Hilary D'Elia

Is God Freaking Out?

What happened to not worrying? What happened to not living in fear? It seems that most people I know have abandoned ship and dived right into the swirling waters of Fear & Worry.

I'll admit I've teetered on the edge of the boat, filled with trepidation as I contemplate my decision - will I join the others in the icy cold waters, or stay in the safety of His Mercy Ship?

No one wants to die. Not one of us. And no one wants to lose a loved one. No one. So with the whole H1N1 'pandemic' I totally understand the fear of such possibilities. However, I can't help but ask myself, "Isn't the God who created us, loves us, cares for us, sends ten thousand angels to guide us, isn't He aware of what's going on and is His plan still intact?"

Is God freaking out about the 'swine flu'?

What if I do die from it? What if someone I love dies from it? Would God have dropped the ball? Would we all be condemned to a life of misery and heartache?

Maybe, just maybe, He is still in control. Maybe He knows exactly how we feel - vulnerable, scared, unsure, stressed out even. Maybe He's waiting for you to come to Him, right now and tell Him your worries and fears. He'll calm, He'll reassure, He'll surround you with His everlasting light and love.

Believe it. Grab onto the life preserver called Faith...

The Silence of God

Silence. The silence of God. The silence of God when you need to hear His voice the most.

How can He leave me here, withdraw His presence? How can He not call out to me in the midst of my most painful trials? The silence of God is silent. His silence is torturous. His silence stings the soul.

Did Christ on the cross experience the silence of His Father? I'd like to know. I think maybe, just maybe, He did. Jesus is able to sympathize with my most desperate moments on this earth.

When the Father is silent His Word speaks to us. His Word is our comfort when we can't hear His still, quiet voice in our hearts. My Father, my silent Lover, spoke to me today. He broke His silence with His Word. And it was sweet, and it was refreshing, and it was all I ever needed. Thank You my Quiet Salvager.